♥♪ჱL!fe Through My Eyes♥♪ჱ

Hiee !! Merry Christmas !!!! Hope You All Have A Great Time !! :) Party Hard...But Take Care ! So, here's a poem I've written on Christmas ! Bells And Cherries! Santa With Gifts! Snow And X-mas trees... Christmas Is Just Full Of These. Love And Plum Cakes. Wine And Lovely Dances ... Faces All Lite Up With Smiles, New Year's Not Far Behind! Shopping And Carol Singing, All These Things Are Fun. But In This Joy And Pleasure, Deep Down, The Real Meaning Of Christmas Is Lost. So This Christmas, Join Your Hands And Thank The Person Who Gave His Life, So That We Could See This Wonderful Day! And ya, as my exams are from the 2nd of Jan, I won't be blogging till the 12th of Jan. So, all of you have a great time....Take Care and seya all soon ! :) Miz Me !! I'll surely miss you all !!! **Hugzz** Juhixxx

I’ve always been one of those, Who are scared to face their lives… Afraid of being laughed on, Who has a fear of moving on! Can’t stand the crowd, Won’t dare to sing in an open ground… Always has a low esteem about me, That I stand no where, anywhere! Sometimes, I feel like nobody cares… Even though I know that many do! How long can I hide from the world? And stick to being emo! Emotions of all kinds are mixed in me, I hardly know what I feel… But one thing I know, that the feeling stinks. Then why can’t I step up and leave the emo me behind?!

Sway with me, Hold me in your arms, Look me in my eyes, Kiss me goodnight… And swear you’ll always be mine! Leave your warmth behind, Do come back and kiss me good morning… Cause you’re like a drug, And I swear you’re my addiction! Can’t live without you, Can’t think about a moment without you besides me… So hold me tight, Spread your warmth in me… And make me believe that you’ll always be mine!

Hi Guys !! Okay, so yesterday was my 14th birthday and I had a total blast !! At last..I'm 14 :) Lol !! Mum gifted me a new cell !! :D But now that my birthday's over, I have to seriously start studying cause exams are in Jan :( Anyways...here's my next poem! Next time, I'll post a new painting that I've made. you can say after a ges :) S!NS Late at night, I suddenly wake up from my sleep. I'm so scared, Cause of my past deeds. It's all quite, everything is dark... It's just like me, when I lie! drugs, cigarettes...what not I've been warned about. But still, I get into bad company...get carried away! I ask myself why! They think I'm innocent. But only I know the fact. I lied, I did wrong, And now, here I cry! I want to confess. I know, I need to change... Cause when I look into he mirror, I'm scared of myself!

You came, It was all very unexpected. Cause I never thought I'd ever meet someone like you. I didn't know what was happening, It was all like a fairy tale come true... Then suddenly, It all started to make sense. I knew, I realized. You were the one my heart always wanted. Without you, I'm nothing. And when you're with me... No one can find the pieces missing! Your smile, Your voice... Everything about you is so lovely That I hope it all carries on this way, I hope you'll always be mine! :)

Right from the beginning… All these years… Not a single step I’ve taken till you were with me. You said, Oh ya! You did say that we are one. Those tales of us together, Is it so easy to forget all that we’ve been through, together? I never told you to stick to me, I never wanted you to pity me! If only I had known your plans, I’d never be ‘er struggling to live my life! I can’t believe you did this, Cause blind faith I had in you. You said you needed me, Just like a heart needs a beat. What was all that boy? I mean, how could you tell all those lies? And your lies seemed like truth to me! Why did you do this? In fact, how could I be a fool to let you mess with my heart! And now I’m regretting, big time. All I know, After having known your reality… One thing I’m gonna do, Is, never fall in love!

It was dark. I remember. Just two candles lit the place. Rose scent filled the room while, Soft music played behind! You stood there, waiting for me. The lovely flowers you handed to me, While you sat on your knees. How happy I was that day, That for a moment, you took my breath away!

When I Think of you, I feel so good. But when you're around, No words are ready to come out! When you smile at me, I feel cold. I wanna smile back But instead I just turn red. So many conversations, With you I've had in my head. So many times I've tried to express! But when you're really near me... I freeze! Completely!

Oh Ya! I'm smiling. But deep down I cry. I'm not fine.. But for you, everything's alright! When I try to tell you, You fail to see my sorrow! When I'm in pain, And wanna hold you close, You're always busy... And again, my pain is left in me. I thought I had you. I felt you knew. You said you were mine, But no! I failed to see the real you... Which I now know.

It's all over, Back to the begining, Back to the time, you were a stranger to me! Wish I could see who you were then. Oh, how I long to go back to the past, Someone put me into a timemachine, I plead! Back I long to go to the time, When I didn't know you! It was a waste, You were just one of that lot Who didn't try to step in. You played with me And failed to see that I really cares. Oh! Please come, Put me into a deep sleep. Take me all the way back. Let it rain hard, Wash your memories out my mind, Cause not knowing you, will be a very good thing to do!

I hate the way my life is, Just sorrow and cries. I hate the way I am, Cause nothing in me is right! Just hatred and sorrow around me... Frowning faces hug me tight. No one to love me, Just sadness to care! This life of mine, Which is torn apart... me at the center, I wonder why!

My heart skips a beat, When I see you looking at me. I just can't help smiling, When you start to approach me. By the time you're with me, My heart has overflown... Cause being with you Is like the best thing I know!

When I look outside my window, And see those lovely drops of rain; I rush outside my house, To enjoy the lovely showers that has been sent! I lift my face up, And close my eyes. The feeling of the water falling on me, Digs right into my skin. It's so much of fun, To dance in the rain. That it leaves me with a question, Whether it's possible to dance through my life...

Free me from the pain, Vanish these worries of mine. Just hold me in your arms, And make me feel good to be alive!

Wish I'd have a magic wand, So that I could get you to like me. Wish I could cast a spell on you, So that you'd start loving me! There are so many wishes I'd ask for... If only I could have that magic wand. But I know that there's no such thing, But still, I wish you start liking me!

Hi ! Okay, so I've finished my 100th post. And I'd like to thank all of you for appreciating my work. Also I'm ending my 100th post with a very special poem that I've written and it's one of my favorites ! :) This One's For You! Let me sleep, Let me sway. Cause in my sleep, I dream of you. You're only mine, I don't have any fear. Cause you're here to be with me, To hold me in your arms! I hate to wake up, I don't like to leave those dreams of mine... All I hope, my one little wish; That you dream of me tonight!

Music's what makes me smile. Music's what's always on my mind. Music's what makes me cry at times... It's a dream I'm about to find!

I smile myself to sleep, Cause I'm thinking of someone. I feel a gush of happiness in me, Cause that someone is very special! Just want him to know... That I need him so much, He'll always be in my heart, Cause I love him so much!

"I wish I could tell what's going on, I wish I could say what I'm feeling right now. I wish you would bother to show a bit of concern, So that I could tell you everything!"

If you stand by me, I'll face anything. If I'm your angel, You're my wings. I just need you... And I know you'll be there, The day you leave me, I'll stand nowhere. I'll hold on to you, No one can tear us apart... You are my other half, And I love you so much! I need you forever, To always be with. The day you leave, I'll seize my life!

You gave me that rose, I still remember that day. You sat on your kness, And asked me to be yours forever. Tears of joy flowed in me, My heart was beating faster with joy, Everything happened so quickly, That it was hard to believe you were mine! Days passed, everything changed. The rose lost it's charm, As I realized, That you had given me the mark of betrayal. Your love for me faded away, I just wish I would have known, Known that this was going to happen... Never would I have accepted that rose from the guy I once loved!

When I close my eyes, It’s all dark for a moment… And then I see it, I see your face… You’re smiling at me. Your eyes so bright, Your smile so warm. I feel it all in me, I feel loved! You hold me in your strong arms, You say that you love me… I feel your heart beat, I see that sparkle of your eyes! The taste of your lips, The ways you make me feel secure, I love it all so much… I realize that I love you so much. Tears fall as I try to open my eyes, I want to stick to my closed world… The place where you’re mine. But I realize, I have to open my eyes and face the reality, The real life…in which you’re not mine!

I so badly miss all that you once were, That love in your eyes, That warmth of your smile… It all makes me wonder, Where have you disappeared nowadays. As time has passed, Things have changed… Somehow, deep down, It’s as if you’ve forgotten who I am, It’s like time has changed you too! You don’t bother to pick up my calls, I’m tired of leaving those messages on your phone, Cause never do you bother to check your answering machine, Nor do you bother to check on me. I’m sick of the way you’re acting, I’m fed up of hearing my friends say that you’re drunk all time, Cause all these things make me feel guilty, Guilty of being so close to you! I don’t wanna know what’s wrong with you, Cause I’m scared to ask you anything else… Because I know what you’re gonna do, Scream and make my heart ache, Ache like I’m gonna die… I don’t know how I’ve been taking all this from you, I can’t understand how I’ve lived with you for so long… But kno...

The cold breeze blows so softly, As I stand in my backyard... I feel it dig into my skin, It's as if it's whispering something to me! The half moon in the sky, Swaying along behind the trees... Half hidden itself, it's so amazing to see... How it's guarding us so well! The stars around the moon, That stick to the sky, They're so far away from us... Yet it's so wonderful to see, How they're out to give us some light! Why can't we be... Like the breeze, the moon, and the stars, That are so full of themselves, Yet it's so great to see them come out, Just to support the blank sky!

I thought that you were mine, I thought that we were one But never did I have this feeling That you’d leave me when time comes. The relationship we shared, The time that we spent… Does it all mean nothing to you? Do you think you can move on after all this? She’s nice. I know… But why did you leave me When she walked along… Why did you break my trust? The face of yours, Which used to light up when you saw me, Now lights up ever better When you’re with her. Why did you do this to me? Can’t you see that I need you…? …So badly… I never realized how much you mean to me, Until you left me! It maybe my fault, It might be true that I wasn’t what you wanted, But you can always give it a second try… Do you really need to desert me, and leave me hanging? What about the bond we shared... For so long, Can’t you see that I’m incomplete, Without the other half of me. Can’t you give it another try...? And start it all over again!

It’s like everything out here’s a mess, It’s like no one really bothers to care… All they think about is them, And leave the others to fill their tummy with sorrows. All the heads are into counting their money, Spending and wasting them like it's a silly game… While some of them are out on the burning streets, Struggling to earn a bit of grain! What kind of a world is this…? So nice to live in for some, yet so disgusting, Where no one is ready to give a hand to the needy, To all those who need a helping hand!

I wanna believe you, When you say that everything's fine.... But it's hard to believe someone, Whose so far away! You say that you love me, You say that you care... I wanna believe you, But I can't! Your talks are like I'm the only one, The one and only whom you love... But your eyes tell a different story, Feels like you're a fake! Don't hide your identity, Cause I know you're lying... I wanna believe you, But I won't!

Those eyes of yours, That sparkle so bright. Oh how I wish, They behold me once! That smile of yours, So dazzling with lust... Oh how I wish, It could be for me! Those strong hands of yours... When holds hers, Oh how I wish, You could ask me my hands, once! I know you're taken, I see that you have her. But still, I do wish... I could have you for once...

You don't need to worry, No more sorrows you'll behold; Just hold my hand and flow along... Cause I'm gonna fly you away, Away from the pain you keep inside, Away from all that hurts you... All you gotta do is, Close your eyes... Trust me, And fly along!

Getting back to the past, Let me tell you how it was; The blue shirt of yours... With the heart taking axe deo... The scar below your drunken eyes, To that puppy smile of yours... Trust me! I must confess, You took my breath away!

It’s so different being with you, The feeling of you is so not like before… It’s like you don’t care anymore… Like you don’t know I’m there ! Your smile, your talks… It’s all so different, They speak a thousand lies, This brings a tear to my eyes. You’re hiding something, I know you are… Are you scared to tell me what’s wrong? Cause I’m feeling that shiver in me. Stop treating me like this, Cause I know what’s wrong with you. I just wanna hear it from you, So that my heart can trust my thoughts. She’s pretty… I know that you like her. Two hours together with her everyday, And not a single minute with me! Move on if you want, Go ahead ...

Loneliness…it’s scary to be alone. It’s hard to see others happy when you’re going through something bad…something sad. It’s like passing through a dark tunnel, all alone! And at that time, you’re just hoping for a helping hand to cling on to. All you want is someone who will listen to you and will stick to you when you’re broken. But ‘emo’ is something which is created by us. I know, it’s really heart breaking when you’re upset and no one knows about it. And, loneliness is carried by frustration, and that’s not good either. Some times, people tend to do things which they never mean to when they are angry. And, so…loneliness leads us to so many things indirectly, which can really prove to be bad for us. We should all learn to speak our hearts out, open up without fear. It really feels good when you’re not the only one who knows what you’re going through. One can always talk their hearts out to their friends, sisters, brothers and even to their mothers. Sometimes, our family members ca...

I wish I could hide in your arms, Place my head on your lap... And cry my sorrow out. But where are you? Cause I can't see you! They say you're there. They tell that you care. But it's hard to believe them... Cause I can't feel you in here. They say that you watch, They say that we're your children. But it's hard to believe them, Cause my life's still a drag. I don't know if you're true. I can't tell that I trust you... I just follow what they are doing, And try to believe in you. Even if you don't exist, I love to talk to you... I can't sense you around... But I wanna bury my head in your arms!

I jus wanna hold you close, And feel your breath on my face . Just wanna feel that touch of yours, And bury my head in your arms. Just for once, And for all!

He doesn't pick up my calls, And that's so much up my nerves. He said that he loved me, But that's just so out for me. Why should I care, For a guy like him.. Whose just out to ignore me. Why should I care for the boy... Who doesn't care how much I love him... But I still miss him, Dunno why!

A new day... A new beginning, But the thoughts of yesterday Still lies within. I look at the mirror... I see a different me, Cause yesterday was the day... I found out how much u mean to me!

I star at the wide black sky As I have nothing else to do. I hear my parents fight inside, As my heart sinks once more. I see a shooting star pass, I don't bother to make a wish... Cause nothing can bring peace in my family, Is what I feel. There they go again, Yelling at the top of there voices. And here I lie outside... Wanting to speak up, But nothing comes out from my mouth! It's so lovely out 'er. So peaceful... But when I step my foot in my world, There's just noise and voice around. Don't they know what I'm going through? Wish I could just shut them up! But here I lie, staring at the wide sky... Shutting my heart up, Cause my shooting stars are never going to give me peace, Is what I feel! Juhixoxo

The soft touch of you still haunts me, Oh how I miss that twinkle of your eye… Your soft bark still rings in my ears, Cause you’re my dog… And I miss you so much! You may not be with me anymore, But deep down you lie in me… And my heart won’t let you go And I need you to know, .....that I love you like thee!

As the sun sets down, I gradually sink inside. As it all becomes dark outside, It's as if I'm gonna loose it all. As I feel that soft breeze on my face, I feel a tear stick to my eyelids, I'm all alone in the dark, With no place to go to. I feel so scared out here, SO left alone.... My tummy grumbles, As I smell food. I wish I could go home If only I'd have a place to go to... My bare arms are my only companions. Dust stick to my toes, I feel a pinch of pain rush in me. I know I'm dying... I can feel it right in me. I wanna hold on more long, I wanna stay back... But my feet slip off the cliff... As I close my eyes. I'm scared and I feel light, That is when I know, I'm on my way to God...

Your face keeps appearing in my eyes, And I don’t know why I cry! I know you love me, But why am I so scared? I promised myself that I’ll trust you, Even though you stay away from me. But there’s a stone in my heart, Which stops me from believing you! Your voice keeps ringing in my ears, It says that you love me so much… It makes me feel secure for sometime, But then that stone is back in my heart! I wish I could believe you… But baby you’re somehow so far, I can’t continue to miss you so much… I can’t let my heart break inside! You look so good, you can get carried So fast… Imaginations flow in my mind That you’ll forget me soon! Please don’t do this to me, Come back to me fast. My heart can take it no more… And I need you to fix me up! I miss you so much, I need you so badly… Just come back to me soon, Cause I can’t stay pressed anymore!

Yellow leaves are falling, Like tears from your eyes. I see those birds hide in their nests, Just like your heart is crawling inside. The wind blows so softly, Oh how I wish I could carry you away… Away from the pain, Away from the sorrows you keep in you. Life is hard, I know it is. But hold my hand, and I’ll help you pass through it. I can’t stand those tears you’re trying to fight, I can’t see you fall apart… Cause you’re my friend, And I love you so much!