“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
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ReplyDeleteThat's a very good question, also very controversial. The difference between a Christian and a Catholic is really nothing. Catholocism is just a very large "sub group" or denomonation of Christianity. Picture a family tree. Christianity is at the top and it's given birth to Catholocism, Methodist, Lutheran, Baptist, and about 15,000 others. These "branches" of Christianity have all developed from different interpretations of the Bible. Most denomonations agree on the key beliefs of the Christian faith like Christ' death, burial, and resurrection but some disagree on smaller issues like baptism, women pastors, ect. Just one disagreement within Christianity that the Catholic church has is baptism by Christening. Christening is the "baby form" of baptism when they are sprinkled with water to symbolize Christ' death, burial, and resurrection. This is unbiblical though, every account of baptism in the Bible shows you must be immersed in the water and you must also believe Christ died for you (Acts 8:36-39). Babies are too young to understand and therefore, should not be baptized. That's just ONE difference. As a Christian, I'm kind of ashamed that there are over 15,000 different denomonations and none of them can come to a perfect agreement about everything. I hope I've answered your question. - Bob
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"When you smile at me,
I feel cold.
I wanna smile back
But instead I just turn red."
I always turn red when he smiles at me. :) This is so good! :D
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ReplyDeleteHeya! I do'na have a blog, so if you could post you responses on yours that would roc! Where do you get the pix for your blog?? Flickr? I like them a bunch! Also, btw, about your Catholicism question, I posted some answers on Bob's blog if you are interested!
ReplyDeleteI am in the 9th grade also. So what do you think of the states? Have you ever visited them? I love my country alotta. But, I have several Indian friends too. Actually awhile ago one of them moved back to India!
Just wanted to say hi!
_Crystal