“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
oho!!who was tht?
ReplyDeleteHey, im good thanks. Howz you?
ReplyDeleteYeah people are annoying :|
Thanks for your support.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully tender!
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Your welcome. My plans are to put up the tree without bringing down the house and reflect on God's perfect sacrifice. How about you?
ReplyDeletethanks! it reminded me so much of him :)
ReplyDeleteand i like this poem too! it was great! :D
that somehow reminds me of sixteen candles from the 1980s or something... great movie... hmm... i think u shud probally change the title... just a self opinion that is...
ReplyDeletethat was really good, thanks, sry about that, i'll explain in a post
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