*Lying in your arms,*
And breathing in your love...
*Kissing you softly*
And making some love.
*Feeling your heart beat close to mine,*
Drowning in your warmth,
*Covered in your love...*
What more can I ask for! <3
Slowly, We have outgrown from our fairy-tale lands, And today, we stand on the cross roads of our lives... Trying to digest the fact, that the real world is not as beautiful As the ones we were once told about.
We have now been exposed to a world filled with choices... So many unknown paths have been opened in front of us, So many things we wish to try out... But, We are bonded and restricted, Because of our confused minds and hearts...
So many dreams we want to fulfill, But, When shared- We are called silly. Parents on one side, peers on the other, An unbalanced support we get, And in the end, It all leads us to nowhere... And, Once again we are back to the crossroads, Confused which path to choose.
So many thoughts, just waiting to come out, So many questions are filled in our minds... But, In this busy life which we have been imposed with, We are forced to swallow back our dreams And follow a path which we are told to take!
We all want to spread out our wings, And fly... Fly higher and higher and live the life we once dreamed about.
But, How do we fly when are wings are always cut, When we have the hopes of touching the sky And living the life of our dreams...!
WE HAVE TALENT. HE HAVE COURAGE. WE HAVE DREAMS... ALL WE NEED IS A CHANCE, A MOMENT, TO PROVE THAT WE CAN ACHIEVE!
We are the youth of today, The future of tomorrow, Just Let us live and touch the sky -This is our cry!!
As each day passed I wished there was something I could do...
As the time ticked away, I couldn't face the fact that you had to go.
When I lay in your arms, And when your scent filled me up... When you looked me in the eye, And when our lips touched,
...I wished the world could come to a standstill, I wished you didn't have to go.
But, The days passed, You had to go. You bid me goodbye
And now you are, miles and miles away from where I lie!
Every moment I spent with you, Are very alive in my heart.
I can still feel your gentle touch I can still feel your breath lift me up, When I close my eyes and hope for the time to pass... When I wait for you to come and tell me That you love me and will always do!
Slowly, he inches forward And leans over me. He looks into my eyes And I just can't look away. His hands slide around my waist, And slowly, his grip tightens. I hold onto him, but deep down... I want to get away. He kisses me softly, I can feel him in me, His scent fills me up, His warmth touches my heart. He holds me tightly, And kisses me on my forehead. I want to speak up, But I'm filled with guilt. I know I'm lying and I want to confess. I remind myself, that I have no rights to play with his heart. I want to tell him everything, even if it means I'll loose him... But instead, I lean on his shoulder and hold him tight, I love him, but the guilt eats me up...
From a curious little child, To today a girl of fifteen... My wishes have changed, But I continue to dream. The only difference is, I don't want to be Cinderella, I don't want to bathe with my barbie dolls, I don't see stars as magic balls, And now I know that there's no Wee Wiley Winky hidden in my house!
As time changed, So did it change me. The lollipop days have gone, But the sweetness remains... And, It still brings a smile to my face, And sometimes I want to re-live the times When I would stare at a balloon with my eyes open wide!
You’re kicked out. The doors of my heart have closed for you. You made me throw away the key And now I don’t need you.
You made me cry You played with my heart. You tore me apart, While you went out Living your dreams! I was such a fool To think you loved me. My heart must me weak Cause your sweet fake talks melted me. You pretended to love me And when you got bored, You left and dumped me Like a piece of thrash!
You put the blame on me Said I was a liar. You said all kinds of shit You treated me like crap.
Yes, I cried. I was a fool to do so. Cause I should have known you were fake Your love was a lie I was a fool to believe you all this time! But don’t we say, love is blind?
But now I’m done with it. I’m back and up on my feet. I’m happy you left I’m happy you opened my eyes.
I’m a new me and I so don’t need you. I’m better off without you. My life is too beautiful For letting a guy like you ruin it!
I’m not crying over you. You haven’t won yet. You said, Time heals everything. This time, Time will show you what you have lost!
I know I'm writing just dark stuff nowadays, but I've got some happy ones coming up soon :) So bear with it till then :p
Also, a great friend of mine has stated blogging and he rocks. So do check out his space. He's crazy :) But he's a great buddy of mine, and your comments will really get him to write more cause his work is worth an appreciation :) His link is http://dreamsgetbizzare21.blogspot.com/
Thanks Nishit for being there for me :) You totally rock!
Take Care guys!
I'll be back soon with better stuff :)
Hey Guys :) Okay, I have been staring at my laptop screen with word open since the past two hours but I just can't seem to write anything :( The words fail to come out!! I so hate it!! Anyways, I'm listening to this amazing song by Kid Cudi called Day n Night. Check it out if you've got nothing to do like me :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUvbrY_ec60 The music is amazing and if you're a dance freak like me, you'll just be dying to switch off all the lights, and dance :) Yep, that's what I wanna do right now! Dancing gives me this intense happiness which I think nothing can ever give me! I can dance anywhere and at anytime :) So...any of you wanna join me? :p Blunt Uncle, are you young enough to show me your hip hop skills :D Alright, today I wanna introduce you to two of my best friends on blogspot who make me smile all the time! Blunt Edges[Uncle] and Rain Boy! Both of you totally rock my blogsphere :) Thank You for your amazing comments, Rain Boy and Blunt Edges, for your reviews! *hugz* There are many more people on blog spot who have become a part of me. Lucy, who has recently started reading my blog. Thanks a lot for your comments. They mean a lot to me. So...I've got nothing more to post today. The summer heat is getting on my nerves!! And I'm going for a shower!! All of you take care :) I'll try to be back with something interesting soon. For now, here's a tag. Thanks Sakhi :D
Its quite an interesting tag and won't take much of my time. The rules goes like this:
RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.
Asked someone to marry you? Innocent
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
Ever told a lie? Guilty
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty
Kissed a picture? Guilty
Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
Held a snake? Innocent
Been suspended from school? Innocent
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
Stolen from a store? Innocent
Been fired from a job? Innocent
Done something you regret? Guilty
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent
Kissed in the rain? Innocent
Sat on a roof top? Guilty
Kissed someone you shouldn't? Innocent
Sang in the shower? Guilty
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Guilty
Shaved your head? Innocent
Had a boxing membership? Innocent
Made a boyfriend cry? Guilty
Been in a band? Guilty
Shot a gun? Guilty
Donated Blood? Innocent
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent
Eaten cheesecake? Guilty
Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent
Have/had a tattoo? Innocent
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
Been too honest? Guilty
Ruined a surprise? Guilty
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty
Joined a pageant? Innocent
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty
Had communication with your ex? Guilty
Got totally drunk before your exam? Guilty
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty
Anyone who's got nothing to do like me, can post it up :) Take Care till then! Love You All xoxo
P.S: How do you like the picture I posted? I love making stuff on my shoes :)
1st May 2009. Do you remember this day? We cut the cake at your house and then we went to US pizza. It was your birthday. You were crying cause he didn’t call. I was telling you it’s all right. Do you remember? Do you remember how close we used to be right from the beginning? We hardly knew each other that time and yet we used to tell each other everything! Funny, isn’t it? How we trust people so easily and blindly! I bet you’re regretting it now. I gifted you pink colored glares. I sometimes wonder if you still have them! And I made you a card. I guess you don’t have that still! But if you do, can you feel the hidden feelings I had sealed in it for you? Let’s get back to 18th April ’09. Lounge 9. Yes, that was where we met for the first time. You asked me if you were fat. I said no. I didn’t lie. Trust me. I never did. Not to you! Remember CCD? I was upset. I had fought with my mum. You were upset too. Remember how we used to forget our worries just trying to make each other laugh? Remember how I loved your Converse and how badly I wanted to scribble on them for you! Remember watching the final episode of Roadies together at your place and how badly we both wanted Nauman to win! And how you kept tagging me of facebook! Happy days, weren’t they? Laughing for no reason. Playing in your society park, and you getting stuck at the height. Remember those sleep over at your place? Those long rides that took us to nowhere cause in the end, we had to turn back home... Churches on Sunday, buying balloons on the highway, you breaking Jazz’s Tommy slippers…. I still have all those pictures and I look them many a times. What about you? Have you deleted all of them? Or do you still have them? Our crazy nail paintings and girl gossiping! Remember how we used to enjoy all the time even though we never had enough money! The early summer mornings when we used to readily get up. Riding during the monsoon, stopping everywhere to click pictures, to capture happy days! Remember the scary house of Iscon mall? You, Paur and Ruch were so scared. You were going to cry! Remember how you liked my hand bands? How can I forget your kittens! Our silly fights, long talks over the phone, our music and dance craze and your funny laugh to add to the beats! Petrol getting over on the highway! And what about, Say Cheese And Kiss? Do you remember all these? Cause these memories are all so alive in me. What went wrong? Everything was so perfect and then suddenly it all came crashing down. The five of us were so happy. Best Friends Forever. That was the name of my facebook album. Where did we go wrong? We were Best friends! Whenever I go online, I do visit your facebook profile. All the time…I have a look at your pictures and I sometimes miss those days. I don’t know why I’m writing this. You may not even want to read it. It’s 1st May 10. And this time, I’m not there. But, I’d just like to wish you a very Happy Birthday. I hope you’re fine and happy. Just one last question… After reading this do you wish you could go back to 18th April 09 and delete me from your life? Or do you wish you could go back to November ’09, so that we could resolve all those misunderstandings? Or are you happy we all fell apart? You don’t need to answer these questions. I don’t even expect a reply. But, happy birthday once again Future Dentist! Study well. Take Care and remain happy always!
Hey Guys. I'm so sorry for not posting for so long. I had gone camping and I just got back. So..for a change, I have a story here :) And not a poem! Hope you like it!
************************************************************************************* When I turned thirteen, I looked at the girls around me and I was so confused. They were all into wearing skirts, putting lip-gloss (I remember, strawberry flavor was totally in), talking about boys, giggling for no reason, applying sweet perfume and reading fashion magazines. In class, they would always put their one leg above the other, and expose their clean legs for the guys to stare at. The guys however were busy chewing gum, talking about Spiderman, soccer and playing pranks on the teachers. They always considered the girls ‘snobbish’. I was glad, considering the fact that I hated the idea of wearing skirts and such flowery clothes. I would always tie up my hair, wear a tee, jeans and sneakers, and go to school. Ben was my best friend. We would both sit together in the last bench, chewing gum and making fun of the other girls. It was fun. We would watch soccer together, ride bikes and swim. Everything remained the same till we turned fifteen. In the 9th grade, our homerooms changed and we were no longer together. We didn’t have any common classes and we hardly met, except for the weekends. And that also, we didn’t have much time cause Ben was taking higher level math. So, when we got back together in the 10th, we had our own set of friends. I had a group of friends who were like me. The girls were not snobbish and were simple. They didn’t talk about soccer though. It was either studies or making fun of the other girls. Ben had a mixed group and now, they did stare at the girl’s legs when they exposed them. And yep, Ben too, spiked up his hair and the tone of his voice had changed. When I would tell him that I wanted to go skateboarding with him, he just laughed and told me to stick to painting my nails. But nail painting was so not my thing. I just sighed and realized that things had changed. Ben soon fell for a girl who was in our homeroom, and was very sissy and silly as per me. She had long black hair and she wore lots of bracelets in her hand. She would always apply dark black kohl in her eyes. During our spring dance, I saw the two of them dance together and I don’t know why, but I got this tight griping feeling in my stomach. I couldn’t stay there any longer and so I left. I had thought that Ben would call me up, but he didn’t. My elder sister noticed how sulky I had become after that day and she even asked me what was wrong with me. I told her what was going on. She laughed and said that I had a crush on Ben and I liked him. I didn’t agree to it and told her to leave me alone. “I know these things, sweetheart.” She said, and went away. Later, that night, I went through Ben and my pictures and I started crying. I wanted to talk to Ben so badly but I just couldn’t call him up. I wanted him to call. I waited for a long time, but he didn’t. Spring break soon got over and it was time to get back to school. On the morning before school, I dumped my baggy jeans and wore skimpy jeans that gave and outline of my legs, right till the end. I even wore a pink tee that hung lowly on my chest. I kept my hair open. My sister gave me one of her perfumes. I was a little uncomfortable in the beginning but when my friends told me I looked good, I felt a little fine. Ben noticed me in the classroom and waved at me. I waved back and I noticed he blushed. His friends teased him too. I felt happy. It all carried on the same way. Guys started looking at me from a different angle and I could sense that Ben was a little uncomfortable. I was now a part of the in-group and I now could giggle the way the other girls did. I started to like Miley Cyrus and I now liked carrying so many shopping bags and walking in the malls with my hair hanging loose behind. I avoided Ben and I played hard to get. Christmas soon came, and Ben invited me to his place. I knew that this was my chance. I wore an amazing black dress and a pink coat. I wore stockings and heels. I kissed Ben on his cheeks when he opened the door and I removed my coat. Ben scratched his head and led me inside. I met his parents and his mum told me that I was looking very beautiful. Ben and I then went to his room and he asked me what I wanted to do. I just flopped onto his bed and looked at him. “You look good.” I said. “Thanks.” He said. He turned his back towards me and started playing darts. I soon joined him and we decided on a bet. The looser would do anything the winner said. It was my idea and luck was with me that night. I won the bet. Ben raised his hand to give me a hi-fi, but instead I pulled him close to me, and gave him a tight hug. He hugged me back, but it was a casual one. I pulled apart when I realized he was uncomfortable. “So, what am I supposed to do?” He asked, flashing me a grin. “After dinner. I’m hungry.” I said, and walked out of his room. Dinner was as it was every year. But, this time, I had wine and a little beer. I persuaded Ben’s mum telling her that I was old enough. She finally agreed to it, and gave Ben and me a little. After that we went back to his room. It was the perfect moment. I latched the door and switched off the lights. “What are you doing?” He asked me, coming closer. I pulled him towards me and looked right into his eyes. “The punishment!” I said. And I planted a kiss right on his mouth. I was hoping he would respond to it, but he pulled apart and switched on the light. “What has gotten into you?” He yelled. “Come on Ben, we aren’t kids. You know I like you, and you like me back. Right?” I said. “I do like you Bella. But it’s not what you think. We’re best friends and that’s it.” The words hit me hard and I started crying. “Come on Bella.” He said, and pulled me towards him. I rested my head in his arms and cried. “I’m sorry.” He said. “I want to go home.” I said. Ben asked me to stay longer but I didn’t feel like it. I washed my face and got Ben’s dad to drop me home. Ben called me a lot but I rejected all his calls. He even came around, but I told my mum to tell him I was away for New Years. He even caught me online, but I didn’t reply to him. He left me many offline messages saying he wanted to tell me something important, but I didn’t reply to him. All through the winter break, I realized that I didn’t like the way I was. It suddenly struck me, that I didn’t like dressing in such a manner and I didn’t like sweet smelling perfumes. I was so frustrated with myself, that I opened my cupboards and took out all my dresses. I rearranged my wardrobe with my baggy jeans and loose T-shirts. One day before school reopened, Ben called me again and this time I did answer. He told me he needed to meet me. I agreed to meet him. I put on my baggy jeans and sneakers and walked to the park where we used to meet earlier. I saw kids skateboarding and I realized how much I loved it. I sat down on the bench and waited for Ben. When he came, I could see that he had been crying. “Hi.” He said. “What happened to you?” I asked. “Long story.” He smiled. “I have time.” I said. And so, Ben told me what was going on. His parents were getting divorced and he was shifting to London with his mum. I felt so bad that I wasn’t there with him through his bad days. He told me how bad things were at his place and how he needed to talk to me, but I wasn’t there for him. “When are you leaving?” I asked. “Tomorrow.” He said. The words hit me hard and I started crying. He cried too. We held each other’s hands and he held me tightly in his arms. “Thank God I can’t smell any sweet perfume.” He laughed, between his sobs. “Is that why you didn’t hug me before?” I asked him, looking into his eyes. “I’m glad the old you is back. Never change Bella.” He wiped the tears away from my eyes and looked at me. “I never liked snobbish girls and when you became a part of it, I thought I had lost you. In fact I did. I like you the way you are. Don’t change, please.” He said. I could see the sadness in his eyes. I could feel every word he said. He cupped my face in his strong hands and kissed me lightly on my forehead. “I love you the way you are.” He said. I hugged him tightly and smiled. “I love you too.” “Fancy skateboarding?” He asked me. “Sure.” I said. We took two skateboards from the kids and skate boarded till we weren’t tired and then he walked me home and we talked about soccer and made fun of the girls of our class. He even made fun of me, but I didn’t mind. “School won’t be the same without you.” I said, when we had reached my house. “I know, I’ll write though. And I will visit you for sure.” He looked down and said. “Pinky swear?” I asked and held out my little finger to him. “Pinky swear.” He said and tangled his finger with mine. We stood holding hands not knowing what to say and then finally, he let go off my hand. “I’ll miss you.” He said and walked away. I stood there and watched him till he became a park of the dark street. I sat down on my doorsteps and cried. My sister put her arms around me and told me that it’ll all be fine. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………................. School felt empty without Ben but then I didn’t have an option. I was in touch with Ben though. We would chat all night and would laugh just like old times. Hanging up was the toughest part but we had to. I got back to skateboarding. I joined the school’s girl’s soccer team and got friends who were like me. I have a soccer match tomorrow, and guess what? Ben’s coming to watch too! He pinky swore to me that he’s coming! And I know this is one promise he won’t break!