“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
lovely poem nd awesome pik!!btw no one's tht unlucky guy!trust me:)
ReplyDeleteGreat poem! Thanks for the comment. No C is not my real name. I don't know why i picked C for a blogger name because my real name doesn't even have C in it. I was just feeling random. I just didn't want anyone to know my real name because I am paranoid about stalkers and stuff. lol.
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Nice poem, I love your blog! Thanks for the comment!
ReplyDeleteThat chick has tight pants.
ReplyDeleteI emailed you!!! Didya get it??
Love the poem your a fantastic writer! and i love that girls braclets and pants!
ReplyDeleteI use to feel that way.
ReplyDeleteNot no more.
I was just being emo. Turns out I was never emo.
LOL!
And that picture reminds me of me because of the pants and the bracelets.
I got LOTS of bracelets.
I got 12 on and 12 off.
I got more but I am not sure if I have 24 or more.
Eh, well.
Nice poem
i love it :)
ReplyDeleteorchestra was ok, it took me awhile to remember everything though :P
:D
thanks i like your blog to
ReplyDeletethis pic is great :)
Great stuff in a very small poem. all the best on your creativity.
ReplyDeletelove it!
ReplyDeleteWow! Those jeans look like mine! Do u like the states? I am homeschooled like Bob, I like it. Just wanted to say hullo!
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