“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
Omg i love ur pic too!
ReplyDeletei hope u do well on ur science test! i always did poorly in in science too =P
and i actually slept in today until 10! but im still tired! ill probably have to sleep all day to catch up =)
wh what a great post. Love the pic. <3
ReplyDeleteOMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is the cutest puppy EVERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteand the poem was really great to!!!
and i'm bored, once again, i'm babysitting my 2 youngest sisters and 3 of thier freinds, which isnt to bad, they arent screaming becauz of the 'haughnted room' AKA the movie room anymore :P lol so its all good, as long as they dont tip the hammock over again :P
how bout u?
That puppy I soooooo CUTE!!!!
ReplyDeleteI wish I had a DOG.
luv,
alexis
The dog is so adorable :)
ReplyDeleteGlad you liked my Homecoming pictures. Hit me back more often!
=] peace&love
nicole.
how cute!
ReplyDeleteYeah. I play piano...actually I have a bunch of songs uploaded in old blog posts. search the tag "piano" on my blog and they should show up ^_^
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ReplyDeleteWow, that reminds me of my cat when he died when I was younger - I had felt so heartbroken. That's a beautiful poem.
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