Monday, October 6, 2008
Oh ya it’s hurting me deep in there,
That look of theirs makes me feel guilty…
Cause this life of mine is a fake!
I don’t know what they’ll think…
They love me,
But why am I cheating on them?
They tell me everything,
I wish I had the courage to face them.
Cause I hate to hide from them,
I hate it when they think I’m who I know I’m not!
I’m feeling so guilty.
So very bad…
Just wanna jump out of the dark,
And tell them who I am!
I’m scared that I may loose them,
Does it mean I’m afraid of the way I am?
They are my friends…
Then why do I feel they’ll leave me when they know who I am?
They are intelligent…
It does worry me a bit.
I worked hard for my exams…
But why didn’t I do well like them?
This is the time
To test them,
To see if they really care and love me.
But why don’t I have to courage to tell them who I really am?
Does it mean,
I’m ashamed of being who I am?