“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
wow. THat' really cute.
ReplyDeleteshort n sweet:)\
ReplyDeletenice layout too!!
i really like it! and your new background, its very nice. :)
ReplyDeleteyea that was cold
ReplyDeletei like that last line it really brings out that darkside of ther other person, pure irony
Dark Poetry again, and wonderfully laid out too. And, I hope it's based on fiction...?
ReplyDeleteKiddin' :P Cheers...
hey, tht was cool!
ReplyDeletei hope its a fiction!!!
cheers
swetha
very painful, just really hope you dont have to go through anything like that..
ReplyDeletenice !! the last line was just perfect !
ReplyDeleteI am amazed!!! A couple of additional lines there, a tweak in structure and you have a pop song there. Great job!!! Keep writing!!!
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ReplyDeleteOoh I love it! And I always love your pics!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I've been gone for so long! I've been SO busy with life recently that I almost forgot to keep living it!
nice one. And again, it's while you have ur exams. Good and great. :)
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beautiful ~~~ such pain ! ur bblog is so colorful and full of life ...
ReplyDeletecheerio gurl !!
adisha
Hmmmm..thats very true...
ReplyDeleteit happens with most of the poeple who live in emotional homes...
Hope that didnt really ahppne to you :)
wow.. hmm.. ur 15? why so sad at such a young age?
ReplyDeletebrilliantly captured nonetheless..:)
very expressive.....gooood....its the words speakin not the lines....
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