“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
very cute.
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ReplyDeleteYou mind if I put it as a text on my blog.(I will put by Death Princess)
Wow, that's a really thoughful poem, well done :)and sorry I didin't comment before, it's just my browser keeps crashing on other blogger websites :( But yeah, to get the rating you go on www.blogged.com, find your blog, claim it then request a review. You can then post it on your blog :D Hope that helps! Really nice blog you have btw! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks and yea! I do love my 2 year old sticky nail polish since summer 2007. :P
ReplyDeleteI added green nailpolish. it makes it shiny and glittery. YAY!! That was kind of the revenge to show you how the meanie looks like. HEY! go to my THE Retro Show blog please.
awwwww,love it(:
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ReplyDeletethanksss for the cute comments :)
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no i didn't first i put on black nailpolish and then put on green on my nails when the black dryed. so one day i want it to be sparkly blue and black yay! i will discolor my nails next week for that thought!!
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