♥♪ჱL!fe Through My Eyes♥♪ჱ

My friends teased me, told me that she was a tramp. But I didn't care.  I sat besides Sonia, listened to her endless talks without complaining..and started to carry her shopping bags while she went about picking up everything and anything that she saw.  I liked having her around. There was something about her. She was always so cheerful, so happy and she didn't care about any damn thing, and when I was with her, I could be myself cause she never judged.  She was the kind of girl with whom I could talk about anything. She was blunt, shameless.. innocent and warm.  She looked beautiful even when she had cheese dripping down her lips, and when she did her funny dance when she got drunk. A funny laugh, and a comforting voice. Yes. That was her, and as time passed, I started falling for her..though I tried to get the thought off my mind. She was a friend. Just a friend.  ****** 3 Years Back An year passed, and so did the other. Sonia and I were join...

Part 1 =) Present "Oh My God! It's so good to see you here!" She exclaimed, as she got up to hug me. "Yea, same here." I sheepishly say, ruffling my hair.  She grins at me and starts laughing. "What?" I ask. "Nothing. You're still a couch potato." She says. I smile. She hadn't changed at all.. ****** 4 years back Sonia.  She drove me mad. Like literally insane! From the first day that she sat besides me in the 11th grade, she did nothing apart from driving me crazy. And all my efforts of running away from her went in vain. There was nothing that I could do, to get her off my back.  She spoke a lot. No, she blabbered non stop. She could never keep shut. From pinging me on facebook, to calling me up at odd hours to actually waiting outside my house for me, she was everywhere! She was practically staking me. And the more I tried to get away from her, the closer she tried to come to me.  My friends made fun ...

I don't even know why I called you up tonight. It's not like I had hopes of you answering. Nor did I really expect you to care.. But then, nor did I think that you'd be so cold.  The last time we spoke, an year ago, we decided to part ways. But then, we didn't end it on a bad note. It was all mutual. Nothing was working out. We did say that we'd keep in touch to check upon each other. But then, none of us made a move. We didn't bother to ask if we were fine, or if we required anything. Were you waiting for me to make the first move?  But today, I did make one. I called.  I don't know what I was thinking, but then, I just needed you. I remember you holding my hands and saying that I could come running to you if ever I needed anything.  That you would still be there. But tonight, when my world crashed, and you were the only one I needed.. You hung up on me, without letting me say a word.  You said I could come running to you. ...

Running away.. That is what I've always been doing. Running from every possible thing, from everyone who try to come close to me, to love me. Solace. I find comfort in the dark..the only place I rest in. Hiding under the covers that bind me, that dig into my skin..leaving me in a condition to not feel again. I feel numb. The dark is where I dwell. It gives me the courage to run again. What is it that I'm scared of though? That a gentle touch may bruise me.. That the warmth may burn me.. That the love will turn into hatred one day, and that I will lie hurt, in a position to not run again. I'm afraid to face the reality. I suppress my heart from beating out loud. Scared to be held, but deep down I long to be loved. Lying under the covers and crying my heart out..and when I wake up, I cannot face who I see in the mirror.  I turn and run.   Deep down, I just run from the person I am. Afraid I am, to love myself.. It's only in the dark, when my shadow lets me ...