I sit on the last bench
And write your name all over my desk.
When the teacher calls out to me,
I don’t answer.
When my partner tells me to pay attention,
I hit her.
I sit on the last seat in the bus.
And keep staring out of the window.
I keep drawing our pictures on the windowpane
And when the the conductor tells me to stop,
I don’t answer and carry on.
Once I’m home,
I lock myself up in my room.
I hug your picture and sleep
Hoping you’ll appear
And sometimes I keep looking into your eyes.
With a blade in my hand,
I lie alone in the bathtub.
I stare at my hands
And then I think about you.
I realize it’ll just take a few seconds
And then I’ll be in heaven with you.
But then I remember your last words
And how you had asked me to carry on with my life.
When I close my eyes
I see you lying on the hospital bed.
And when I open my eyes,
I see a blade in my hand.
I always wonder if you can you hear me sing your favorite song?
Can you hear me whisper ‘I love you’?
Can you feel me when I kiss your grave?
The look of your eyes always makes me go weak.
I want to be with you
I want to see you,
I just want to know that you’re still there.
When I stand in the balcony at night,
I sometimes feel you’re there.
I keep trying to call on your cell,
Just hoping you’re there.
My mum says you’re there above me.
She tells me I should be happy
Cause that’s how you always liked me.
She holds me and comforts me,
But it’s you I want,
Please tell me you’re alive…
Please come back to me...
(Thanks Sonaksha for reviewing ♥ You're a real princess! )