Rocking In My Arm Chair Alone


I am weak,
My smile has faded.
I cannot get up easily
And hug my children,
Wishing them a good day.
My knees shake,
I need a helping hand
To get up on my feet.
I just sit here on my arm-chair
Rocking away to your memories!

Sometimes, I forget where I am.
Sometimes I don't realize I am alive.
Someone or the other has to shake me awake,
Reminding me, I'm here to stay.
My eye-sight is no longer strong
But I still keep looking at your pictures.
We were smiling in them, we were happy...
We were together in them

Sometimes, memories of that day haunts me.
And I see myself in black.
Everyone around me is in black
And I realize you're gone
And I am alone.

Today, on our anniversary.
I have nobody to take me to your grave.
Our daughter has grown,
She is away.
Our son is married
He has not called me since decades...

I wish I could get up
I want to come to you and tell you, I love you.
But I am weak, I sit still...
Closing my eyes, trying to blink my tears away.
I then feel your breath on my neck
And I hear a whisper
Calling out my name
Saying, "I love you dear
And we are forever"
You say.

It's all dark then...
I am in your arms
It feels like I'm flying.
I'm in your arms
You're taking me away.
My breath becomes calm
My heart beats in ecstasy
And I know I am coming to you
I'm sure we are going to stay
Together.

Comments

  1. OpaqueAugust 28, 2009 at 4:53 AM

    Ah, this is something different from your pen. I like the feel here, and I appreciate you trying something different for a change. Good on you! Keep writing!!!

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  2. TaraAugust 28, 2009 at 10:22 PM

    So sad, but very well written! It kind of reminds me of my grandma who passed away 12 years ago.

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  3. JakyAugust 29, 2009 at 7:51 AM

    As beautiful as always. Love ya Cutie!

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  4. SavyAugust 29, 2009 at 6:40 PM

    I agree with Brosreview, this is different but very good. I love the style and it's very straight forward, but still profound. Gorgeous.

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  5. Sakhi.August 30, 2009 at 6:02 AM

    u r turning old:)
    lol...!!
    this ones somethin new!!

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  6. JackAugust 30, 2009 at 6:54 AM

    Juhi,

    Read 2 poems now. Previous one was good with a lot of pessimisism. This one brought tears to my eyes. One day you will make all of us very proud.

    Take care

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  7. PhilO♥August 31, 2009 at 1:59 AM

    @ Broseview: Thank you. I thought that a little bit of change would be good :)
    @ Tara: Sorry to here about your granny. I'm sure she loves you.
    @ Jaky: You commented after ages! :) Thanks.
    @ Savy: Glad you liked it ♥♥
    @ Sakhi: Lol! I just kinda got bored of writing my usual stuff.
    @ Jack: Thank you so much. Your comments mean a lot to me.

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  8. JackAugust 31, 2009 at 7:20 AM

    Juhi,

    I hope you do not mind that I have given out your name and url in my latest post. Do pardon me if you do mind.

    Take care

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  9. Pramoda MeduriAugust 31, 2009 at 9:36 AM

    Hi Jihi,

    I'm here from Jack's blog..

    This is a master piece..hats off to ur thoughts and the way u have penned it down is an extraordinary for a girl at ur age..:)

    Keep it up :)

    Pramoda

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  10. DibsyAugust 31, 2009 at 11:39 AM

    I never wanna grow up. :(

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  11. Bella_182August 31, 2009 at 4:38 PM

    I love your pictures.I should Google some pictures next post.I've just been so busy with school I haven't posted anything yet.
    Your posts make me cry sometimes T_T so much better then mine

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  12. deepsSeptember 1, 2009 at 8:45 PM

    thats pored out streight from the heart ... ther is life n emotions brimming in those lines ...

    just when we need somone to uplift our mood
    need a shoulder to lean
    a heart to listen to ...

    there is that spl somone in everyone's lives....

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  13. ♪♪Happy Go Lucky♪♪September 4, 2009 at 7:17 AM

    That was such a sweeet poem!! loved it!! will be back later to read more! :)

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  14. RinkalSeptember 5, 2009 at 4:20 AM

    hi
    juhi
    how r u?
    how are ur studies going on
    i love your all the post
    & they are always beautiful
    teach me also how to write

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  15. SmitaSeptember 6, 2009 at 12:32 PM

    Juhi! omg! That's so touching....where do you find all these emotions? At your tender age,the feelings you pen is amazing! Your fan always!

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  16. heavealieOctober 11, 2009 at 10:54 AM

    hey cursed,

    well written and captured the emotions pretty well.this was different from the lot!!the dark emotions of life are a perfect ingredient for a good poem!!you use them well here.keep writing!!

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