“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
superb yaar
ReplyDeleteU r good at poems. But first tell me, where r u going? huh...;)
omg!!tht's nah fair.....where will u run away??
ReplyDeletelolz!!nice one!!
thanks! some of your poems are like youve read my thoughts and written them down :) like 'dream', and the one that says 'I smile myself to sleep, Cause I'm thinking of someone.' and 'you'. they all reminded me of him :)
ReplyDeleteand that was a great poem too! :)
I came to your blog to say thanks for the comment, but I had to say something about that poem.
ReplyDeleteThat is a really good one. That's exactly how I feel right now about a guy in my life.
Love your blog!
Emj
where did you get this idea lol??
ReplyDeleteThis is great!
ReplyDeleteThanks.. for the comment!
That's a good poem, and definitely an experience I've felt before and hated.
ReplyDeletepeace&love
nicole.
I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a sad poem.
Been there, done that.
What is this jazz about you running away?
Peace,
Jillian
Wow, its really good.
ReplyDeleteThe kinda thing that you think and feel, but cant put into words (you did put it in words and its fab ;) )
Have a nice day :)
so did something bad happen
ReplyDeleteHeck ya! I love that.
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