Monday, July 2, 2012

Gone With The Rain

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I quickly wear my clothes and wrap myself in the shawl I always carry around. It is late. Way late than it always got. Samuel hands me the money as I walk out of the door. 

Its cold outside and the lanes are empty and quiet. The clicking of my heels is the only sound I hear. I wrap my arms around myself tighter. I clinch the money firmly in my hands as I walk faster. My phone does not stop beeping. It’s him. 
I don’t answer. I have no answers for his questions. Or maybe I do. But they aren’t the ones he’d take in, or the ones that I would be able to tell. The phone does not stop ringing. I switch it off and dump it inside my tattered bag. It’s torn and dirty, just like I am. Maybe I’ll soon buy a new bag now that I have some money. But can I replace myself?
I don’t blame him for calling. He’s worried. Well, he would be because of my disappearance of every night. But then, I can tell him nothing. We are both from two different worlds and the truth I cannot tell, at least not now. I need to wait for the perfect time. The time that I don’t know when will arrive. 
I keep walking. It starts to rain. My make up starts to shed. 

I like the rain. I like how it drenches me. I like to believe that it cleans me. 

I don’t look for any shelter.
I throw my bag aside and unwrap myself. Letting my hair lose, I close my eyes and stand. I run my hands through my face. I’m tired. The money is wet. It looks useless. Taking one last look at it, I let it fly with the wind. 
Picking up my heels in my hands, I take off. I run. 
I run away from my past.
Tomorrow, I will start again. And if I feel trapped once again, then I’ll wait for it to rain once more. 
For now, I’m clean and my past is erased. 
Yes, tomorrow brings a new beginning and I will run to grab it before its too late.
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32 comments:

  1. i wish rain can really wash our pasts...
    or wind can blow our sorrows and miseries....

    bless u..

    anu

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  2. Wish i could like seriously write like you -.-

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  3. The new day always brings a new beginning, and the rain can cleanse us, but sooner or later the past will catch up. As the great and wise Meatloaf said "You can't run away forever, but there's nothing wrong with getting a good headstart."

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  4. nice...i like the thought of the rain as an escape route...it is for me...i would love some rain right about now...smiles....

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  5. I am re-living that moment Philo. Very lovely writing, spontaneous, well woven words.

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  6. Hi dear, thanks for stopping by...wow, you write really really well, its captivating!

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  7. This is another "wow"! Love the way you dropped all words, I enjoy reading and reading it again.. :) Thank you for this one..:) Right, tomorrow is always a new beginning..:)

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  8. I like the way you used rain as a time for new beginning, erasing the past, forgiving and rekindling hope ~

    Nice writing ~

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  9. The rain does wash away the past and we wait for a new beginning! Juhi, your writing is just perfect:)

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  10. lovely.... the metaphor of the rain washing it all away is lovely :)

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  11. i love the way you play with words, it's so amazing :) I am inspired with your posts :)

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  12. **I like to believe that it cleans me.
    Such a description of the way I'd life to feel.
    I don't know why but I sense an undertone of guilt and misery that fills the protagonist - maybe I'm over imaginative. But the part about picking up the heels are running away from the past - iLike! :)

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  13. Short and crisp. Conveyed each feeling in a new light.
    Loved the way you write this.

    P.S> Sometimes I feel getting drenched in the rain cleanses my body and soul. Ironical!

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  14. its amazing !! grrr,..i wish real life mei washing away da past was so easy..n i love da rain :) n ds post of urs is simply beautiful <3

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  15. You've matured soo much as a writer :)

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  16. Philo,

    Feelings of one who has to do something not liked by her told so amazingly.

    Take care

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  17. Lovely written! The nature’s shower has a healing power to help restore ourselves back and refreshes from tiresome.

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  18. how nice it would be if we could just wash our past, specially which we don't want to be in our memory....sigh.....not that easy....

    so nothing to worry, there is always a next time.....

    well written...:))

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  19. lovely and wonderful narration Philo...I liked it very much. Without saying much, You said too much. Overall beautiful post:)

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  20. this is great. Anyhow, do you in fact drench yourself in the rain? After reading this, I'd like to try too sometimes when things are getting hard (:

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  21. Lovely narration...Very beautiful....I loved the thought of rain erasing past memories...!

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  22. beautiful image to go with the magnet words. i felt the post<3

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  23. beautiful image to go with the magnet words. i felt the post<3

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  24. Tomorrow brings a new beginning and you will run because there's no point in not grabbinh it.

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Your words mean a lot :)