♥♪ჱL!fe Through My Eyes♥♪ჱ

Hey Guys. I'm so sorry for not posting for so long. I had gone camping and I just got back. So..for a change, I have a story here :) And not a poem! Hope you like it! ************************************************************************************* When I turned thirteen, I looked at the girls around me and I was so confused. They were all into wearing skirts, putting lip-gloss (I remember, strawberry flavor was totally in), talking about boys, giggling for no reason, applying sweet perfume and reading fashion magazines. In class, they would always put their one leg above the other, and expose their clean legs for the guys to stare at. The guys however were busy chewing gum, talking about Spiderman, soccer and playing pranks on the teachers. They always considered the girls ‘snobbish’. I was glad, considering the fact that I hated the idea of wearing skirts and such flowery clothes. I would always tie up my hair, wear a tee, jeans and sneakers, and go to school. Ben...

Behind everybody’s smile, There is sadness. Behind everybody’s ‘I’m fine’, There’s heartache. Behind everybody’s craziness, There’s fear. Behind all of us, There’s a dark shadow. It pulls us down, Leaves us helpless. When we get torn, It’s laughs! It is wicked, It likes to see us give up. Well, that’s life! Nasty, unpredictable and a scare ride! It’s a path through the dark. It snatches every caring person away from us. It leaves us alone with our shadow, It feels glad when we are scared! It waits for us to give up. It waits for us to turn back and cry. It waits for us to loose all faith, And when we do, it sinks us completely… But if we try, If we fight and cross the dark path… It gets torn, And gives us a change to walk in peace. If we accept the loneliness And walk all alone, It shows us the light… And gives us hope. The end gets nastier. But if ...

We sleep on the sand, The water plays with our toes. The stars shine above us, While the summer breeze blows. There’s no one else around, The waves come to greet us again and again. I lie in your arms, You kiss me softly on my head. You hold my hand, I lie on your chest. You smell of the ocean’s water… Salty and warm. You play with my hair, While I sleep on your lap. You guide me, you watch over me You’re my pillow and my blanket. You run your hands through my wet hair, You kiss me again and again… You hold me close And whisper that you love me. Everything is perfect, Until I open my eyes and find myself on my bed. You’re not here…you never were… The only salty thing around me is my tear! My hair is not wet, There are no stars around. The only voice I hear is my mums. I realize it was all another dream Which I know can never come true Cause just yesterday, You proposed to my best friend On the very beach I wanted to be with you!

The cold night, The look of your eyes, The touch of your hand, Your breath on my neck… The chilly breeze, Your arms around me tight, The softness of your voice, The feel of your heart beating with mine… Those silly jokes you crack, Those romantic songs you sing. The way you carry me in your arms Sweeping me off my feet And taking me to a world I never want to leave! Wink♪♫

You may say I’m crazy You may take me as a tramp. You may consider me mean, But at least I am who I really am! I don’t pretend, I don’t live a fake life, I’m an open me. Like me? Then good for you! Your wrong judgments won’t put me down. Your views towards me won’t change the person I am! So, save your mind for somebody else, Cause this is how I am And I love the way I live! Wink♪♫

Bad memories I have so many That they haunt me all the time, They don’t let me rest in peace Every thought brings me back to my past deeds. I sit alone and feel scared, The chills of bonded lies don’t leave me alone. Whenever I look into the mirror, I hate the person I see. Not knowing what to do, I’m lost and filled with guilt. It’s all eating me from the inside It has finally broken my heart, And I am unable to mend. The broken pieces still beat With every memory that sparks within… I feel like tearing myself apart, I feel like screaming and running away from it all. I risked life, played with it. Now I have to deal with the consequences Cause it’s too late to turn back. No matter how many tears I cry, No matter how badly I hate myself. I have lost and now my past runs my life! -Wink♪♫