Sunday, February 12, 2012

I’ve had boys. Plenty of them.

But none that lasted long. No, we never departed on a bad note. It was always mutual.

The feelings just died down after a point. After parting ways, I would miss the old times, but then a new guy would enter my life and the circle continued.

A smile and a couple of sweet talks - That was all it took for me to get a guy to fall for me.

They all fell for my innocence.

Bad boys were my attraction, and for them, an easy girl like me was an easy pick. When I say ‘bad’, I don’t mean it in a literal sense. You know, those guys with tattoos and muscles who are just laid back about everything and everything, and who go about bashing up the other guys who try to mess with their girls? The Vin Diesel kinds… Yea, that was my pick. The nastiness, the naughtiness, they pulled me in, and I gave in.

But then, they knew it was all just a fling. And so did I. They all just built up my experience, and got me off my innocence. After that, we parted ways.

And I let another guy pull me in.

For them, it was nothing. For me, it all made me feel loved and wanted.

Dependent..

That's how I've always been. And now, I can't seem to let go..

Where am I heading, that I don't know.

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Listening to: Infinite Arms- A band of horses.

Picture: Google


P.S: Just cause many asked, it's a work of fiction :)


45 comments:

  1. The understanding, feeling all are mutual
    that's the important point

    stay blessed ^_^

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    1. Mutual feelings do tend to get stronger from one side at a point :)

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  2. Ah,This was beautiful.So beautiful :)

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  3. Beautiful!!! Is this your real experience?!...I hope not Sweetie!
    Anyways...Have a wonderful day!!
    Keep Smiling...I love your blog :)
    Loads of Love xox

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    1. It's fiction..might be a reality for someone else :) Thank you!

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  4. A smile and a couple of sweet talks - That was all it took for me to get a guy to fall for me. - hahaha.. still laughing...
    :D :)
    Great as ever .. i think it makes up for a simple n meaningful post ...
    Cheers~

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  5. Aww.. it happens, I wish you could take a right decision so that you never have to regret. God bless.. :) xx

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    1. Sometimes, we just tend to leave our minds aside :)

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  6. Philo,

    It happens when one is searching for meaning of love and is not sure if it is there. Ultimately one does get into steady relationship which meets expectations.

    Take care

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  7. 'got me off my innocence' - wow! what a line! and attitude! loved it

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  8. I guess yesterday's chat made you blog about this topic today! :P
    Its okay, Juhi. Things happen! There's someone out there made for you. And he's gonna make his arrival as mysterious and as fantastic as possible! :)

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    1. Haha no. I wrote this long back. I didn't have anything to post, so I posted it :)

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  9. Wow!! This post seems quite realistic....Loved it really...Being dependent...Uff!!...It hurts!...coz, It's like everything or nothing....I'm dependent person too :(

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  10. You know what... It seems like the girl you were talking about was me!! I don't really know about the innocence, but everything else was perfectly me!!
    Sometimes it is just too hard to let go, and sometimes it seems like your head is asking you to let go, but your heart is asking you to hold on to it tight.

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  11. Being the old lady here- I wish I could sit down all the young girls and lecture them on NOT being dependent :) Not to 'need' to have a guy- to be full within oneself so that when a guy is in the picture- he is simply frosting on a cake...the extra in life which makes it all the more wonderful- but if he is taken away- there is still substance. Does that make sense? Loved your thought provoking post!

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  12. Geee this one is tough! It made me think a lot!

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  13. I read somewhere before "beautiful fascination is better than love". This post of yours made me think about this quote. It's so hard to understand even our own impulsive actions sometimes.
    By the way, is this a work of fiction or a true depiction of someone's life?

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  14. this is a hard reality, looking for love and always being left unfullfilled

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  15. I think this is how real stories end up. Things happen in a flash like a fairy tale, but the sad part is it doesn't last long. Nobody likes such stories, but they are common and happen with most of us. That looks like a real story, but I hope its not yours:)

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  16. I think this is a good example of people who are addicted to the falling in love part of a relationship. That is a magical time and when it starts to become more comfortable, they miss the 'high' of the falling part.

    This may not be the message you intended to portray here but my head is directing me towards this line of thinking {|:-)

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  17. Beautifully written. So simple yet painted the picture so realistically. And with a faint poetic touch to it. Nice read.

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  18. Great post, being true to our own desire, makes us feel great, even though sometimes we got mistaken or misunderstood. But, I like the way you dropped every words, :) Very interesting..:)

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  19. Boys like naughty girls n girls like bad boys:) A good one , Juhi! Enjoy Valentine:)

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  20. as what they always say Philo..it is so easy to fall in love but it is hard maintaining it to last for a life time..

    just a short note sis: I'll be away for awhile someone dear to me died..but I'll be back ;)

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  21. Hi dear,
    I admire ur lines. How u can come to know exactly about all that. In these days, it is kind of fashion to have lots of girlfriends and boyfriends. Again, ur sense of writing has come out in this post.
    Take care

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  22. We realise a bit too late that we don't need to be dependent on someone. It's a lesson not easily learnt.

    Straightforward, as always. :)

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  23. Hey Juhi.. who doesn't want to be loved..? everyone wants someone for them... N we all have liked 'bad' material at sum point in our lives.. ther's sumthing exciting bout getting involved in things from which we are told to stay away from.. It's all part of the learning and growing up.. :) As u go along, ul finally understand your own-self and also have a better understanding of the One u need..
    Ul surely get ur prince dear :)
    Amen :)

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    1. just read ur last line again..
      n wanna take these words bak... :)

      d fiction seemed pretty real, d way u wrote it.. :)

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  24. You write beautiful fiction, Girl :)
    Cheers!

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  25. so bad luck for me..i dont have any tatoos or i am not a bad boy :( :P

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  26. Dependent? Hahaha, the little girl loves to be pampered :D

    Nice read!


    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  27. i wish it remain a fiction only.....
    beautifully written...:)

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  28. hmm
    'bad boys were my attraction and for them an easy girl like me was an easy pick up..'
    it happens though...there are good ones too ;)

    i agree that this is a good fiction work..


    ste

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  29. Lovely is the word. Such a wonderful piece of fiction. :)

    xoxo
    Sonshu

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  30. Emotionaly dependent, I have felt like that and it's horrible: to base your self steem and your happiness in someones words and actions. Congrats for your blog, I follow you =)

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  31. This work of fiction reveals a very real picture of teenage psychology.. Nicely written.. :)

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  32. Work of fiction! Aaaah :) I so wished it was for real, but the win is, you did make it sound real :)

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  33. Hey this is so amazing.. U bring the life to the fictional characters of yours by your magical words..


    And Hey, I have something for you on my blog.. Please do come and collect it. I hope you like it too:)

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  34. True love is a myth.. so life is just gonna be these "experiences" with different people all throughout!

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Your words mean a lot :)