“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
Why must you always swing between the extremes? There's a thing called balance and it would do you good to attempt at creating a character who carries both happiness and misery within her. That is the real strength of writing.
ReplyDeleteOther than that, it's as good as I would expect from you, but you can and should aim higher. :)
Lovely poem and i loved the picture. :)
ReplyDeleteLovelyyy :)
ReplyDelete@Rose: She does that always....
ReplyDeleteBut she is good writer....
Perhaps, the world shows its ugly face to innocent beings lending them a heavy heart. The not so innocent ones, well, they make up the world.
ReplyDeleteNice read, I do hope she soars despite of everything that might seem wrong.
Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete
i hope she finds that glitter as well...there is a nice contrast in the two stanzas...
ReplyDeleteHope her heavy heart's cleared...and her silent cries are heard
ReplyDeleteNice poem :)