“I don’t wanna hurt him anymore, I don’t wanna take away his life... I don’t wanna be a murderer.” I lie on the crumpled bed sheet, alone. Naked. I close my eyes, tighten my fist, and try to stop the guilt from growing, from eating me up. It wasn’t the first time. I should have been accustomed to all of this by now, but no I’m not. I don’t think I ever will…yet I continue to do so, and yet I lie in his arms, and crave for him when he’s not around. The pictures appear in my mind. Flash backs. They always do after he leaves. And I always try to shut them from my mind. But it’s next to impossible. No, I don’t love him. I already have a lover, and he? He already has a family. It’s just the craving, the desperation, and the intense longing of being loved. He caresses me, he’s firm, strong, and I easily melt inside him. When he’s besides me, he is all I see. I don’t think about anything else. The world just seems beautiful when we lie next to each other, exhausted. And then, he leaves...
Yes its hard to believe its soo beautiful when you are around... :)
ReplyDeleteCheers,
:) Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteHow do we define something that is more than beautiful. Nice one.
Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete
beautiful (:
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ReplyDeleteLittle still cute:)
loved it :)
Juhi,
ReplyDeleteCaught up with 2 pending posts. You are as good at photography as in writing poems. Nicely captured moments. This statement is so true that at times one feels like it is a dream.
Take care
aww..i like :)
ReplyDeletebeautiful words kiddo.
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ReplyDeleteSometimes, a look, a smile or even a touch is all that's needed. To be enslaved by love is the most beautiful and comforting feeling in the world.
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